I had no idea that conjure existed in such a wonderful fashion. Years ago, I tried European paganism for years, and it just didn't feel perfectly right to me as a Black woman. In fact, it was so wrong that I eschewed much of spirituality for several years.
Well...during that time, can I just say that my life sucked?
I know now that I'm a spiritual creature, and that I'm meant to live a deeply spiritual life. My life was delightful while I was in touch with the Earth. When I lost that...OMG. I felt that I had no control over life, and took on a horrible poverty mindset that resulted in pushing away everything Venusian, including money, love, beauty.So, I now find myself waking up from my non-spiritual fog, buried deep in a job where two of my supervisors detest me...broke from a laughably low wage, scared that I'll lose my dream apt and have to go through my third court battle in a YEAR because of lack of money...sexually inactive for over a year...finding my perfect man, who happens to be attached to a pill-popping meanie...unable to write or create, which is my desired career...and unable to establish domestic security or gather all my property from my long distance move. I also want to get in touch with my tarot, astrology and psychic abilities, because I've always loved being a reader...but I'm too fearful to do much with it!
I need help.
I hope I can find it here.
Plus, I hope I'm not too much of an annoying mess.
So, uh, hello.
