Blessedeveryday here!
So I like many have been a lurker on the forums for a long time.
I've done a bit of spiritual work for myself and have learnt so much from you guys it's a blessing to be in your presence.
So my story is I've just come out of an extremely controlling relationship during which my health suffered a lot.
Even though I'm now divorced (it was an Islamic marriage aka a nikkah not a civil one by British law) by ex still has so much control and it doesn't seem to be easing which is making me upset.
The biggest issues are:
he won't let me spend much time with my children (I'm looking into hotfoot as a route to reduce his appearances at my home as I can't even relax he turns up to see the children)
He has told me that if I remarry he will take the children off me. They cannot live with a stepfather.
My life seems a bit pear shaped right now. I'm repairing my career from all the damage sustained when he had me leave my job (when I was very depressed and well wanted to die). I'm regaining control of money. I'm doing some work on road opening and success too to get more money coming in.
I cannot breathe at times because of the control. I've had various readings and they've indicated I'll be moving between end of 2018/19 so it all pans out.
But I'm human, and I worry as I cannot see how it happens.
I've had readings from Airr and none Airr. Both matched up

I've only recently been taken off my anti panic meds and I want to stay off them. So if you see me asking for advice amongst hotfooting you know why. I've tried civilised routes but sadly I'm not getting far.
As I type this he is sitting in another room (family room) with my girls whilst I sit hear crying because I don't get much time with my babies. He says he pays towards them so he has a right.
Sometimes it's hard to understand where to go or who to reach out to.
I'm blessed to have my daughters and my improving career. I'm blessed my health is improving.
I just need to get rid of the over a decade of control. And I'm worried until I do something 'strong' he will continue this cycle.
Anyway, I could rabbit on but I won't.
Thank you for the opportunity to be on here.
I will share any knowledge I have as and when it is appropriate to do so.